Thank you for responding with such honest insight. I agree it is as though I carried my tormentor(s) in my head after escaping them, as they taught me how to speak to myself. I believed the lies that I wasn't worthy. I know it is a tough journey to remodel that inner voice and learn that we do in fact matter and are good enough. I'm sorry it worries you that this is not attainable but I do want to share that I am seeing progress in my journey to believe my truths. Part of this is through therapy, and I highly recommend "EMDR" treatments because this helps us access the memories where we first believed these awful lies about ourselves, and then remodel the moment and give ourselves what other people failed to... authentic love and safety. Thanks for reading.